Christmas shopping in Maputo has been a...well, a different experience. I didn't face
the usual obstacles of packed parking lots, crowded malls, and long lines. The obstacles in Maputo involve bartering to get the best price, dodging cars as we shop on street corners and fighting off pushy, desperate venders promising to give you a "good price madam." A few weekends ago Heldio (fellow CAM teacher) took Lindsay and I around town to different spots to shop. Here we are at the hut which is actually where I was heading when I got a bit "side-tracked" by the running man. We also went to the newly-opened shopping mall for the first time. The stores were only for the immensely wealthy and looked too nice for me to even step foot in but we did get a picture by one of the few Christmas trees I've seen in Maputo.
I love buying gifts for people but the problem is I become a bit obsessed with finding people the perfect gift and every year I lose sight of why I am giving gifts. In my naivete I figured I would not face that issue this year since I'm in Africa. But silly me, I fell prey once again to the trap of thinking more about the gifts I'll give than why we are celebrating. Luckily God opened my eyes to this on the way to school one day.I was walking briskly, humming along, lost in my own bizarre Katie world of thoughts when a powerful, clear thought or rather, question, came bursting through the fog of my daydreams and smacked me in the face: "What was it like in heaven 10 months before Christmas?" (just this year I realized that the pregnancy is longer than 9 months...why isn't this more publicized?) What was it like for Jesus, the Father, the Spirit, the angels...all knowing what Jesus was about to do? What must have gone through Jesus' mind knowing the incredible pain and suffering he was about to subject himself to for our sake? What were the angels thinking? (I think if I were an angel I would have been thinking "Don't do it!! They don't deserve it Jesus!") Did they have a "farewell feast?" What was going through God's mind right before he allowed his Son to clothe himself in humanity? Did he give Jesus a pep talk? Did He cry?
As my mind explored these questions, I was overwhelmed like never before by the emotion behind Christmas, by the implication of what Jesus' birth meant and I was suddenly sobbing. (got some great confused looks from the Mozambicans) Raised in the Church, of course I know in my head the "reason for the season" but I don't always allow the reason we celebrate affect me as it should and my thoughts and actions don't always show that I am truly remembering why we celebrate Christmas. I get so consumed by giving gifts that I forget about the enormity of the most amazing gift the world has ever received.
This year I have been so excited about "Christmas" but I confess it is not for the right reasons. I have been so ecstatic because I get to see my family. Like a child waiting in eager anticipation for Christmas because of Santa, I have waited eagerly for this season but not because I was excited about remembering what Jesus has done for me, but because I get to see my family. Not that longing for my family is a bad thing- I believe God blessed me with an amazing family and understands I miss them- but I wish I constantly longed for Heaven like I've longed for home, I wish Christmas would be a time each year when I would be overwhelmed by what Jesus has done for me, a time when I wouldn't stress about what gifts to give but rather, would rejoice in the gift I have already received. I'm sorry if I sound preachy but I feel like such a moron for losing sight of Jesus during "Christmas season." My prayer for myself and others is that God would put afresh on our hearts an understanding of what it meant for Jesus to be born; what it meant for Jesus, for the world, and for us personally. I feel like I've heard this idea nearly every year but for the first time, I actually understand it.
Teaching at a Christian school, it was so neat to have a Christmas program that was totally centered on Jesus. (well...and Christmas food) Lindsay's kids dressed up and recited several memory verses as a part of a Christmas poem and Mrs. Meyers wrote a play about the shepherds on Christmas night. My kids did great on their recitation of "O Little Town of Bethlehem" and then led everyone in singing Christmas hymns. I had a flashback to singing at half time in the Philippines when someone would hit a wrong note and Trent and I would exchange a look and then lose it and start laughing so hard we couldn't sing. One of my students reminds me of Trent and when some one's voice cracked, I happened to be looking at Domingos who broke out into laughter and when I needed to give him a stern look (he was on stage so everyone was watching) instead, I had to turn away because my shoulders were shaking from laughing as well.



3 comments:
dude gayde remember that one game me and you could barely breathe we were laughin so hard and then uncle todd joined in too!!!! hahaha
I can't wait till you're back in the States this Saturday! I'll be praying for your rides/flights/travel and cannot wait to see you. And, I've very, very happy that you are safe and not mugged. Thanks for your wonderful thoughts about Christmas. I love you.
i say lose the elephant hair.... mugging, broken down planes.... not so much!!!
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